Monday, January 26, 2009

Dinner for 3 adults: $7.87

Last night for dinner, Rick, Cody and I had chicken, rice, stuffing, green beans and bread. Yeah, carb and sodium overload.
Whole chicken: $4.12
Rice: $.75
Stuffing: $1.00
Green beans: $.50
Bread: $1.50

And the best part? I have leftover chicken for lunch today!

The Last of Sheila (Coburn)

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Patrick Swayze says it right...

"If you spend so much time chasing staying alive, you won't live."

My FIL's cancer dr kept my inlaws chasing treatments and dangling The Cure until, literally, he pulled the rug out from under them and admitted it was over. On Tuesday, he was still dangling the SC transplant; Wednesday was, "it's not possible, I'm taking you off everything."

Instead of it being months to live, it was weeks.

And he couldn't live life then. He was too sick, the cancer was too advanced. Basically, he was let out of the hospital to die at home. There was no going on one last vacation. He could barely go to the grocery store.

But he learned to play a chord on his new banjo. And he talked sense to Cody. And he saw his family constantly. And he treasured each Christmas card sent.

Just 39 days later, Dad died.

But now, we can see he lived life for a very long time. I just wish he'd been able to live it to the end.
The Last of Sheila (Coburn)

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Did I miss last year's"2-month curse" memo?

June 2, 2008 - my fatcat, Dalton, died
then, 2 months and 27 days later

Aug. 29, 2008 - Gramma died (cancer)
then, 2 months and 3 days later...

Nov. 1, 2008 - my brother, Scott, died (heart attack)
then, 2 months and 2 days later...

Jan. 3, 2009 - my father-in-law died (cancer)

The Last of Sheila (Coburn)

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Ringing in 2009 with just Karina and me

Dad (AKA my father-in-law) has made it to 2009. YAY!

Rick has been at his parents since Monday. Karina and I didn't head up because Dad gets emotional about everybody being there. As he's losing his strength and energy, he's also experiencing his dignity being severely tested.

He doesn't need to feel like he's got an audience. Especially when he goes into memory lapses or starts crying.

Rick has so much to deal with and it was hard for us to mutually decide to be apart right now. I want to be there for him and our family, not for me but for them. (My grieving process is more internal, I prefer to be alone.)

Our love is incredibly secure, so there are no worries or questions.

Ringing in 2009 with Karina showed me how wonderful and strong of a relationship we have. She could have done a dozen other things with other people, but claims she preferred being at home with me.

That's a beautiful way to start the New Year!

The Last of Sheila (Coburn)